There is a fundamental reason why we look at the sky with wonder and longing—for the same reason that we stand, hour after hour, gazing at the distant swell of the open ocean. There is something like an ancient wisdom, encoded and tucked away in our DNA, that knows its point of origin as surely as a salmon knows its creek. Intellectually, we may not want to return there, but the genes know, and long for their origins—their home in the salty depths. But if the seas are our immediate source, the penultimate source is certainly the heavens… The spectacular truth is—and this is something that your DNA has known all along—the very atoms of your body—the iron, calcium, phosphorus, carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, and on and on—were initially forged in long-dead stars. This is why, when you stand outside under a moonless, country sky, you feel some ineffable tugging at your innards. We are star stuff. Keep looking up.
if you’re sad, hug a tree. lay with the grass. talk to the moon. let the sun warm your skin. feel the dirt beneath your feet. appreciate the color of the sky, the smell of the flowers. make love to the earth.
Atma’s dad made those pen puppets for her. We visited him (my brother) in rehab today. He has no $ and isn’t allowed to leave the premises.. so he made her xmas present with stuff he found in the facility… I thought it was sweet.
“i give myself five days to forget you.
on the first day i rust.
on the second i wilt.
on the third day i sit with friends but i think about your tongue.
i clean my room on the fourth day. i clean my body on the fourth day.
i try to replace your scent on the fourth day.
the fifth day, i adorn myself like the mouth of an inmate.
a wedding singer dressed in borrowed gold.
the midas of cheap metal.
tinsel in the middle of summer.
crevice glitter, two days after the party.
i glow the way unwanted things do,
a neon sign that reads;
come, i still taste like someone else’s mouth.”
I’m sitting in a hotel room in santa fe by myself, ordering room service and watching witchy movies on netflix. Needless to say, I’m feeling lonely.. you should read below, and share your insight with me, I Love You.
Life Situation I’m Unsure About:
I left Taos in June and that includes the relationship I was in. I left in chaos - so stressed out and not doing well. We didn’t try to do long distance so when I decided to leave we just fizzled out. We dated less than a year so I guess we weren’t that attached. I was absolutely okay with it — didn’t think much about him at all to be honest! — until I returned to Taos about a month ago (to visit, live, whatever). The things that used to bother me don’t anymore. I adore him and think he is the cutest, most creative, warm soul to be around. I like his electricity. Now, he did start seeing a girl in another state he knew from his younger days. I’m trying to factor in jealousy issues into this but i’m stumped. He doesn’t know if he wants to give it another try because 1) I left him and he doesn’t trust me or know if he feels the same way he used to and 2) he met someone else in those months. But she does live a thousand miles away so.
ME: Do I just say fuck it?! If his feelings are so altered in just a few months away from me, then how real could they have been in the first place? Or, if I love this person and want to be around them (which is how I feel), do I be patient and stay in Taos and give them time to regain feelings and trust and just be okay with whatever the outcome? If they end up not wanting to be with me, is my heart strong enough to be okay with that? Or should I just go back East and follow the plan…. and not worry about having my heart broken? What the hell would you do?
I’ll always signal boost this because not only does this work for people in under privilege areas it’s also proof of human ingenuity.
Really, we kids that grew up in the early 90s were all told about how we had to conserve water because drinkable water was such a rare resource and people in foreign lands were basically fucked up the ass because there was no way for them to get drinking water. 20 years and 20 bucks later one of the biggest problems humanity faced is a non issue. THAT’S FUCKING CRAZY!
Somebody should start one of those online donate things where people can donate money to buy these to send to areas with unsafe drinking water. But somebody other than me should do it because I don’t know how to do that kind of thing or get the word out.
“Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex; But eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, Stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories and make peace with them.”