I’m sitting in a hotel room in santa fe by myself, ordering room service and watching witchy movies on netflix. Needless to say, I’m feeling lonely.. you should read below, and share your insight with me, I Love You.
Life Situation I’m Unsure About:
I left Taos in June and that includes the relationship I was in. I left in chaos - so stressed out and not doing well. We didn’t try to do long distance so when I decided to leave we just fizzled out. We dated less than a year so I guess we weren’t that attached. I was absolutely okay with it — didn’t think much about him at all to be honest! — until I returned to Taos about a month ago (to visit, live, whatever). The things that used to bother me don’t anymore. I adore him and think he is the cutest, most creative, warm soul to be around. I like his electricity. Now, he did start seeing a girl in another state he knew from his younger days. I’m trying to factor in jealousy issues into this but i’m stumped. He doesn’t know if he wants to give it another try because 1) I left him and he doesn’t trust me or know if he feels the same way he used to and 2) he met someone else in those months. But she does live a thousand miles away so.
ME: Do I just say fuck it?! If his feelings are so altered in just a few months away from me, then how real could they have been in the first place? Or, if I love this person and want to be around them (which is how I feel), do I be patient and stay in Taos and give them time to regain feelings and trust and just be okay with whatever the outcome? If they end up not wanting to be with me, is my heart strong enough to be okay with that? Or should I just go back East and follow the plan…. and not worry about having my heart broken? What the hell would you do?
10:19 pm • 24 December 2013 • 1 note
LifeStraw purifies water instantly and inexpensively: it is a solution that can provide millions of under-privileged people with safe drinking water.
reblogging again because science
Seriously, Science. Do your thing.
IT’S ONLY 20$.
OH MY GOD
I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR TUMBLR TO GET WIND OF THIS
I’ll always signal boost this because not only does this work for people in under privilege areas it’s also proof of human ingenuity.
Really, we kids that grew up in the early 90s were all told about how we had to conserve water because drinkable water was such a rare resource and people in foreign lands were basically fucked up the ass because there was no way for them to get drinking water. 20 years and 20 bucks later one of the biggest problems humanity faced is a non issue. THAT’S FUCKING CRAZY!
Somebody should start one of those online donate things where people can donate money to buy these to send to areas with unsafe drinking water. But somebody other than me should do it because I don’t know how to do that kind of thing or get the word out.
this is amazing
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8:39 pm • 24 December 2013 • 301,128 notes
“Inside every person you know, there’s a person you don’t know.”
— (via nizariat)
8:35 pm • 24 December 2013 • 781 notes
“Until you heal the wounds of your past, you are going to bleed. You can bandage the bleeding with food, with alcohol, with drugs, with work, with cigarettes, with sex; But eventually, it will all ooze through and stain your life. You must find the strength to open the wounds, Stick your hands inside, pull out the core of the pain that is holding you in your past, the memories and make peace with them.”
— Iyanla Vanzant (via cosmicroots)
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8:33 pm • 24 December 2013 • 50,178 notes
"HymnalAYA" - Random Rab (insert ‘this is everything’ face right huurr)
11:20 am • 23 December 2013 • 2 notes
the smiths - unloveable
and if i seem a little strange well that’s because i am, but i know that you would like me, if only you could see me, if only you could meet me
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11:12 am • 23 December 2013 • 2,830 notes
Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
~ Rainer Maria Rilke
12:02 am • 23 December 2013 • 20 notes
Women say to me sometimes, “Marianne why do I always meet emotionally abusive men?” My answer is usually the following: “The problem is not that you met him—the problem is that you gave him your number.” The problem, in other words, is not that we attract a certain kind of person, but rather that we are attracted TO a certain kind of person. Someone who is distant emotionally might remind us, for instance, of one or both of our parents. “His energy is distant and subtly disapproving—I must be home.” The problem, then, is not just that we are offered pain, but that we are COMFORTABLE with that pain. It’s what we have always known.
The flip side of our dangerous attractions to people who have nothing to offer us is our tendency to feel bored by people who do. Nothing that is alien to our system can enter into us and stay there for long. This is true whether we’re talking about something taken into our bodies or into our minds. If I swallow a piece of aluminum foil, my body will regurgitate until the offending object is expelled. If I’m being asked to swallow an idea that doesn’t “agree” with me, then my psychological system will go through the same process of regurgitation in order to expel the offending material.
If I’m convinced that I’m not good enough, I will have a difficult time accepting someone into my life who thinks I am. It’s the Groucho Marx syndrome of not wanting to like anyone who would want me in their club. The only way that I can accept someone’s finding me wonderful, is if I find myself wonderful. But to the ego, self-acceptance IS death.
This is why we’re attracted to people who don’t want us. We know they’re not into it from the gate. We PRETEND to be surprised later when we find ourselves betrayed and they leave after an intense but fairly short stay. They fit perfectly into our ego’s plan: I will not be loved. The reason that nice, available people SEEM boring to us is because they bust us. The ego equates emotional danger with excitement, and claims that the nice, available person isn’t dangerous enough. The irony is that the OPPOSITE is true: available people are the ones who ARE dangerous, because they confront us with the possibility of real intimacy. They might actually hang around long enough to get to know us. They could melt our defenses, not through violence but through love. This is what the ego doesn’t want us to see. Available people are frightening. They threaten the ego’s citadel. The reason we’re not attracted to them is because we’re not available to ourselves.
Marianne Williamson (via mindofataurus)
HOT DAMN MARIANNE - this is one of the best articulations of my relationships I’ve ever read.
11:52 pm • 22 December 2013 • 1,063 notes